Self-Enforced Prisons

Self-enforced prisons are the hardest kind to break out of - and yet you will. And as you do, you'll enjoy freedom in the very area you once associated with suffering - your mind.

Elusive Sleep - My Remedy Has Stopped

Sleep is elusive in Paris ... I can't escape - Paris my remedy has for some reason stopped working for me. Paris was always my place to escape, to recharge, to refuel, to become renewed - This has not been the case on my last two trips. Sleep is elusive - my mind will not stop nor will the angry thoughts that haunt it - the behaviors of old once again taking hold and resonating in my now unquiet Parisian mind.

It's Not the Vessel

It's not the vessel - It's the contents.

Reshaping the vessel is not the answer. God knows I have tried that way too many times - Shape/Size, Shadings (black, white or beige), Coverings (Long, short, rough or smooth), Size (large or small or swollen or gaunt).

Changing the vessel always seemed easier than dealing with the contents. Against better judgement and common sense it was never assumed but always wished. A new vessel would make for better content; but, with sound judgement and common sense one is always left with the truth - It's not the vessel - It's the content.

And now one is left with the fear to crack open the vessel and find what?

Encore

Sitting in Palais Royal, with or without friends, one of my favorite things to do and places to be. The perfect place to sit and reflect - sit, reflect, and obssess - sit, reflect, obsess, and go over all the same repeating themes - at times it is like a classic black and white movie with all it's graininess.